I can't believe how long it's been since I have posted. My Nana passed away almost 3 weeks after my last post and I am still feeling the loss. So much of my old life is changing, my reaining grandparent, my dad's mother, is now 93 and looking at moving into a supportive living community this summer. The old family gathering places are in major transition. My father is retiring this year as well. I am actually excited to see where this takes him.
Me? Well I got through the first season with the goat business! Didn't make money and got freaked out and anxious a bunch - but I have learned so much. And one big lesson is coming through today...I don't like my current job at all anymore. There are some good moments here and there but overall I am sick of dealing with the same shit day after day. And the reality is that HIV prevention and harm reduction just aren't inspiring me anymore. Hanging out with my goat "tribe" makes me happier than anything else besides hanging with my friends or family. March 5, 2010 was the day I knew I had to start looking for a new direction. Nearly 2 years later I am coming to the conclusion that I need to find a different "regular" job to keep me going until I figure out all the goat stuff and can make that profitable.
OF course I have moved as well. Closer to the goats and am finding that I don't really miss living in the city so much. I wasn't really availling myself of the benefits of city living so there really isn't a loss. And I am there 4-5 days a week anyhow still. For work and whatnot. Things seem to be happening in 2 year cycles so I am gearing up for planning what comes next...if I don't I will lose my mind.
